I am not perfect and as I have been sailing through my journey sometimes through smooth waves, sometimes the roughest ones, I have learnt to accept that.
One of the most important thing that I have realised is "I don't need to be perfect at all!", as I am perfect in my own perfect imperfections.What is perfect anyway? Who invented 'perfect' at the first place? I feel like it is a term that comes from outside rather than inside. Perhaps the way we grew up, the way we sense the external pressures, the way the outside world suggesting what we need to do and who we need to be makes us want to learn and master what 'perfect' is. Then slowly the outside pressure becomes an internal pressure and we start thinking: "I need to do this, I need to do that to feel ok, to fit in, perhaps to be perfect". After a while it feels so familiar that we don't even see it, we don't even want to acknowledge it, so the internal pressure stays.I have been through the internal pressure of "trying to be perfect" a lot. I have been anxious and worried and made myself feel bad whenever I didn't feel, look or behave at my best. And then slowly I have learnt on the way..I have learnt that it is ok, as being and living my authentic self all the time, the best I can do to feel good. By not pushing down or away when I didn't feel at my best, by giving myself permission not to feel good, by offering myself compassion when i am not feeling at my best, was the greatest support I could give myself. In this way these 'not feeling good moments' disappeared in a flash, as all I needed to do is acknowledge them and give myself an imaginary hug saying: "it is ok, what can I do for you to feel good?"All the ups and downs are part of life and if we learn to accept that, they will be part of our lives but won't dominate us. By not pushing those moments away, by accepting them we might be able to reveal something about ourselves that was hidden, something that wants to be acknowledged and heard. Most cases it might be just trying to ask us: Woman, go and do something for yourself. Have a walk, have a bath or a little moment of lying down and connect with your breath or just have a loud sigh or stick out your tongue and release some tension with a lion breath. Sometimes it might be something deeper if it has been sitting there for a while ignored and lonely in us.Whichever is the case, our body wants us to listen and when we do, we have taken the first steps to start feeling better either in the moment or on the long run. ♡